Thank You!

Dear Love,
I've spent countless nights awake looking up at the stars thinking about what went wrong. Going through my pictures and saying "You couldn't have faked it at least not all of it... Or could you". There are times were I think wow I really am that stupid girl who thought she was finally gonna get her fairy tale ending. I loved you so much that I even gave up my mom for you. The fact that you knew that she would never approve our relationship and you made me believe that I was making the right choice by choosing Love. She was right about one thing and it was that you were gonna leave me with much more than a broken Heart. Everyday it is a constant battle to forget you. But how can I when you were my first? First man I chose to kiss, the first I chose to make love with, the first Love that helped me do many firsts with. By being my first I can not help but wonder why I can just be your last and you can be my one and only? According to everyone nothing happened but when I look in your eyes I see her. I can see the regret and remorse that you feel. But who would I be if I just accepted that and moved on? I would be that stupid girl who believed she wasn't good enough for something more. Always wondering why can I just forgive and forget you ask? If we're both being honest here I have forgiven you but I can't forget along with the memories we created. You always thought I had a problem with you being Black since I am "White". Your eyes couldn't see past the color of my skin to see that I am truly just a human being just like you. You always had a problem with insecurity. Whether it was because of your complexion, financial situation, and even social status. So every time you looked at me you thought I was too perfect to be with you. But I am a Mexican-American who's proud of being brown just the way your proud of being Black. I may have grown up in a whole different world than you but that never changed my feelings towards you. You saw the world in black and white... While I saw it in colors. You were so color blind to see what was really in front of you. I will forever be the girl that got away and you will be my first. Sadly there isn't much for us to talk about now. I just hope you are happy and treat the next girl like a Queen. Based on personal experience I know you will do a great job doing that. Bye now... Till next time.
With Love,
Angeles

Haiti Trip

https://www.gofundme.com/impvrf3ct

Please pass this Link around with your family, friends, and co workers. I have been working with my schools Students For Haiti Solidarity club at LAHS this past year and have seen all our efforts to help build our sister school come to life. It would mean the world to me if everyone donated even just one dollar. To help make my dreams come true and see the school in real life. Thanks again to all who donates!!! May God Bless you.

.-. Yeah it's a process

Let's just say that sometimes he makes me feel special and other days he makes me appear special . I wish he wouldn't make me look retarded in front of my co workers . 

Lucifer

HEY Y'ALL!!!! HOW ARE YOU GUYS DOING!!! OK ON A SERIOUS NOTE EVERYONE SHOULD START WATCHING LUCIFER ON HULU!!! IT IS A PRETTY BOMB ASS SHOW!!! WITH A VERY HANDSOME BRITISH Protagonist!!! SHOUT OUT TO MARTHA PEREZ FOR SHOWING ME THIS  https://drive.google.com/open?id=0BwRLHnm3BLMjZnFCWUFzUloxZjRkOTVxaWdLeDhrX3RGYjlN

Summer Bummer

Moral of story. I moved next door to my EX!!! #FML

Gotta Love My Momma #KILLMYSELF

So my mom and I work in the same place. Which one would think would be an amazing idea. Since she would be able to give me car ride to and from work.( Yes I do not have a license yet -.- and yes I am working on getting one soon! Ill keep y'all updated.) Anyways so today I asked my crush "Paul" (fake name) to help me get something down from a super high shelf and he did . And than he said something funny stupid... which i thought was cute for some odd reason and it made me blush . But as we both turned I walked into my mom and she told him " What do you think you are doing with my daughter" Talk about a mood KILLER!!! I felt so embarrassed !!! Probably would have died than and there i could. All i could do was scurry from the scene !!! in hopes that my mom would just drop it. But being the nosy Latina women she is. She had to investigate the scene. I felt bad for "Paul". But than again its not like he knows i like him. But in the end it happened and that was the embarrassing thing that happened to me today. ._. 

The Ins and Outs of my Love life

OK so I haven't been posting a lot on here. But if I'm being honest I have had little time to do things that I want to do. I haven't been writing poetry or listening to music!!! Good news is that I like someone... Well kinda cause this person is 100% off limits. :( I swear I can never fall for the right guy. Like last year I had a thing for a guy named Jesus. But he turned out to be a major fuck boy in disguise. To be honest I would have never guessed it!!! Moral of the story is that just because their named after a man known for peace and eternal happiness. That doesn't mean he is gonna give you that. But this year I was just gonna play it cool and just focus on college apps and trying to avoid seniorites . But nope fucking cupid always has to hit me with his love arrow and quickly get me under someones spell. But this time i kinda find someone attractive at work. But its strictly only gonna be a business relationships. cause I have seen those soap operas where the girl sleeps with her boss and all her co workers find out and call her slutty. And I ain't about that life. But for now I will just admire his Big Brown Eyes from a far.